I Will Be By Her Side

My dreams are still
My eyes are open
My body is asleep
But my mind is frozen

My heart is no longer plagued with love
But rather with the knowledge of my sin
No longer am I stricken with grief
But more with the sorrow of my kin.

I am worried for her;
I am scared and frightened
That she may end up like me
During that peak in which my sin was heightened.

I cannot forget
The bloodlust I used to feel
It is torment
Just to recall the time when I had wanted so much to kill

Were it not for my divine Creator
I would have been condemned to Hell
Were it not for my Heavenly Father
I would, from His grace, have fell

My earthly father would have died
He would have gone to Heaven;
If my bloodlust had continued
Out of all the sins, I would have committed all seven.

No one was there for me
At the time I needed help the most
I could not tell a single soul
And so paid the price for that very toll

I do not wish to see
That which had happened to me
Occur to her
In the same torturous way it had occurred to me

Hence I will not leave her alone
For I have decided
To be right by her side
In this time of need that she has shown.