Silence

Silence, in the night
Darkness does not try to hide
The walls around me are crumbling
As I hurt deep inside

Silence, in my body
I cannot think straight anymore
My heart and mind are closed
I have become nothing but a core

I am but a shell
Of the self that I once was
My spirit is dead and my heart is gone
Of this misery, I am the cause

Slowly I am losing my sanity
Slowly my life is ebbing away
For now I am dead and so is my soul -
To think that I had been wishing for this very day

I used to wish for death
I used to lust for blood
But now that I have received death
I feel as if I had drawn a tarot card

It was not meant to happen this way
It was not meant to be
And now the one that I love -
She no longer cares for me

I know she does not love me
But I am grateful for what she has done
The short time we used to be together
Has been a spark in this darkness as bright as the sun

I am grateful for the friends
That had comforted me in my time of need
If not for them, where would I be?
If not for them, what would have become of me?

Now although I am dead
The memories remain
But soon they will fade
And all that is left will be the remnants of my shame.